July 11, 2013
Lord, do not forsake me; do not be far from me, my God. Come quickly to help me, my Lord and my Savior.
It was after 8 PM on a July night when I went for a bike ride. Knowing that it would be dark within the hour, I planned a short 30 minute ride. It was an in-and-out ride, meaning, I ride to a particular destination, turn around and go back to the point of origin.
I had turned around and was about 75% done with the ride. As I pedaled up a hill, it seemed more difficult than normal. I realized why. My back tire was flat. I didn’t know how or why but it was flat. I had three or four miles back to my in-laws. It was after 8:30. Walking would get me there after 9 PM and darkness would be certain. I had an inner tube in a little case under the seat. But just the tube. No tools, no pump.
This bike is a road bike, with narrower tires designed for speed. It’s not top-of-the-line, but a nice road bike I have used for various bike charity events. These tires have more miles than generally suggested. Is it any surprise the back one is flat?
I just keep pedaling. I wonder if I will hurt the rim. But what is the alternative? I have no cell phone with. My father-in-law is in playing cards in Rock Springs, which I will bike through. Then it’s a little over a mile at to their house. What difference does it make at this point?
I can still pedal. The inclines are just more difficult. The whole concept of a flat tire is not lost on me. The last few months, my heart has not been in the best place with God. I still have faith and still believe. I’m just not feeling as close to God as I would like. My spiritual life, my inner tube, is just a bit deflated. But I keep spinning. I keep going, knowing God still loves me, confident I will regain the closeness I long for. I also know it is I who has moved and not God. As long as my inner being, my rim, stays strong in the Lord, I know the Lord will be patient with me. Thank goodness.
Unfortunately, Lord God, it is easy to have periods when we just don’t feel quite as close to you. Let us be thankful that you never remove yourself from our lives. Please be patient with us when we are not as close to you. Reflate our lives with your spirit, love and mercy. Amen.