Fri., July 20, 2018
2 Corinthians 3:4 – We are sure about all this. Christ makes us sure in the very presence of God.
It’s been a struggle lately.
I don’t sleep well.
I am not focusing.
I feel unsure of what is next in my life.
The days begin with somewhat of a plan. At the end of the day, I am not sure anything I did today was important. Significant. Made a difference.
There is busyness but not fulfillment.
It’s like a picture that has been taken. Everything is noticeable. Everything is recognizable. But everything is just a hare bit out of focus.
I am blessed. My life is filled with many good things. I have little to be discouraged about. Many would trade spots with me in a heartbeat.
I get this. I know this. I deeply appreciate this.
Yet, this does not mean I always feel “put together;” whatever “put together” means.
I give myself permission to be. To struggle. To know today is another day. I begin anew, knowing I do not go alone.
God’s presence is with me. Christ promises me the Holy Spirit, the one who holds my hand when I don’t feel “put together.” We will mull through it together, the Holy Spirit and me.
Soon, a day will come when the corner will bend. Things will look a bit smarter. I will have more clear direction. Focus will be sharper. Direction will be more evident. Energy will be easier. The words and laughs will come easier.
For now, the Holy Spirit sits with me. Is present with me. Knows my heart, my struggle, my lack of focus.
And is OK with it.
I pray that I can be as well.
For God’s presence, I am grateful.
Lord God – thank you for not expecting us to be at the top of our game every day, even if we expect this of ourselves. Thank you for being present with us, even when our lives are a bit or a lot out of focus and we aren’t sure why. Help bring things back into clarify when it feels just a little empty. Bring words and laughter into our lives today. Amen.
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